SVLSTG, Photographer, artist and director.
I paint photographs, direct film and try to create something that gives more time than it takes. I try to tell a story. Often it feels like I’m telling the same story, differently each time. About Freedom each time. I live in my own world. I’m picky and I have yet to learn how to kill a darling. I can be a very social guy, but often I’m not. I have great respect for people who ‘live in the now’. I tend to live in the future with my mind in the past. I am needy and often insecure, but I’ll fight hard not to show it. I have big dreams and high ambition, but I will not compromise to achieve anything.
When I’m alone I talk to myself, and often give myself motivational speeches – aloud. Nightingale. I drink a bottle of red wine, one sacred, lonesome night a week, when I draw things from my childhood memories. I spend way too much time writing the stories behind my photos, and searching for them in other peoples work. I am very judgmental towards photographers who don’t tell stories. I wish I wasn’t. I have a muse: My late mother. I can’t live without my son and daughter. I am in contact with all my emotions, even though it feels like I lost them long ago. I hope one day I will get to see my mom again so I can tell her: “I did it.” I arrange my life to do that; it’s my drive. I have made a lot of bad choices in my life so far, and I feel that I’m constantly making up for it. I’ve changed so much this last few years that I hardly know my self anymore. I sometimes wish I’d died at 27, but I didn’t. I love music. I idolize two artists: Sandro Botticelli and Helmut Newton. I have a mentor in photography; his first name is also Thomas, he is the most honest person I know. I have few friends. I love them. I often wonder if I’m going to make it, but I don’t really know what ‘it’ is. I love art, and I secretly love fashion. I really want to make a movie someday. I used to be called tomace. I’m not him anymore.